I finally got my password back. It wasn't exactly a struggle (though more than you'd think, considering LJ is not, you know, a spy agency), and it had more to do with my ambivalence about coming back here than anything else....but there you have it ( Read more... )

A constellation of messages in the last couple of days, both direct and indirect ( Read more... )

"Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony." GandhiI don't think we strive for perfection, but for wholeness. To be complete, full, alive and connected. When all the parts of you come into alignment with your core self, I think that is when you are most whole, most healthy, most happy and at peace ( Read more... )

I was reading a soapmaking forum the other day, and one of the soapers was talking about how she started her business, and how she decides what to make and sell. Basically, she just makes what pleases her, and the rest follows ( Read more... )

I feel so guilty about wanting things. I know I should be consuming less, using less ( Read more... )

Every so often, I need to do a purge of all the stuff in my life that is not in some way vital to me, in the sense of increasing the quality of my life. You know, the kind of stuff that takes up space and time, and doesn't really add any meaning or texture. I'm going through books, magazines, clothes, even habits - including patterns of interaction ( Read more... )

I think part of what attracted me to Wicca and its derivative traditions was the notion of balance. I am not, by nature, a person that lives easily on the middle ground. I tend to waver between extremes, and it makes for a confusing and exhausting existance. I literally spend hours contemplating how I should live my life between two mutually ( Read more... )

I tend to veer between two extremes in my lifestyle and habits: order, minimalism, Apollonian control and balance vs. hedonistic, Dionysian excess. I have both an obsessive and a controlling personality, and as much as I am pleased by indulgence in a particular hobby or novelty, I am equally driven batty by the accumulation of stuff and that ( Read more... )

Ok, to the folks who read...I'm taking a bit of a break from LJ land (and hopefully I'll be able to resist the siren call of the forums I belong to as well) to shake myself back into some sort of shape. I may still pop in to read you guys from time to time, but I won't be posting or commenting. I'm not ignoring y'all, but I feel like I need to keep ( Read more... )

I feel so fucking confused right now, and like I am privy to too much information and am saying all the wrong things.

I am disgusted with who I am these days.